benedict, who was a monk. he said that is the type of life i will lead. quiet in prayer, doing service to the church, instead of going back to be what he was before he became pope. very interesting. there will not be a pope making commentary on the new pope, words and actions. bill: i think when we think about his words we all have an interpretation for what his message is, you especially. when you think about this comment, i've had moments of joy and light but also moments that have not been easy he said today, moments of turbulent seas and rough winds, how do you read that, father? >> well, you know, certainly there's a lot of joys that come with being a shepherd of all the people, all the people who come to see him at the big audiences, all of that i'm sure is joyful for him but also there has been a great amount of difficulties within the church. we think about when he first took over in 2005. the sex abuse scandal he had to deal with and he dealt with it pretty quickly. tell you a very personal story. i was part of a religious order at the time whose